At the beginning of 2020 I had a plan. At least, I thought I did…
In January, I promised myself to get my life together. I was honestly all over the place. I wanted to get really clear on my goals and aspirations. Being the person I am, I sought coaching. I decided to sign up for Lyra and talk to someone who didn’t have a personal connection to me.
I started my first session with my truth; I didn’t know where my career was headed. Everyone would ask me where I saw myself in 5 years, and to be honest, I hesitated every time. After a few sessions, I told my career coach, “I think I want to move to New York to live with one of my best friends and do something more creative.”
I focused on those two things for the next three months. Well, that plan fell apart in March. My coach asked me how I felt about it, and honestly, I had a hard time putting it into words. That’s when I realized I was approaching this all wrong.
I was consulting the wrong person. I was creating a checklist like I normally do instead of following my heart! I wasn’t following God’s plan.
I decided to take a step back and focus on figuring out God’s plan for me. On May 31, 2020, I wrote this in my prayer journal.
“God I pray that you guide my heart. I pray that you guide me every step of the way to a prosperous life. I pray that I touch the lives of many and I overcome every fear and doubt I currently have. Lord, please be my source of strength as I move toward what you have called me to do. I love and worship you! – Amen”
Two months later, I feel as though God is answering my prayers. He’s leading me toward my calling and giving me all the tools and resources that I need to get there (amidst all the chaos of the world).
The messages I’ve received over the past few weeks serve as confirmation. He is helping me figure out my Destiny and I am forever grateful for this unexpected spiritual awakening. What a blessing!
I tweeted that this morning and so many of my followers could relate. It has been a rough day for the LinkedIn family. The company officially announced layoffs, and I honestly don’t know how to feel.
Although my role wasn’t directly impacted, I am a total empath and my heart is heavy. Both my work family and real family have been affected by coronavirus from job loss to hospitalization. I can’t even begin to explain the emotional roller coaster I have been on in 2020.
Today, I made sure to give myself and my colleagues a little extra love. I checked-in with so many people this morning, spent some time outside with our plants, made myself breakfast, and went into full praise and worship.
My spirit needed it. While my energy was completely depleted, I had agreed to speak at an event today. In order to prepare and get through it, I desperately needed to get my energy up.
Part of me wanted to cancel, but I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. So praise and worship were in order to center me. If you’re interested, I created a gospel playlist (with a bit of a turn up) when you need that extra boost of motivation.
Gratitude (for maintaining my job) and sorrow (for my family, friends, and colleagues who did not) reside in my heart at the same time. I feel helpless, but at the same time hopeful that all will land on their feet. With so many emotions, a good strong dose of self-care is necessary.
Whatever self-care looks like for you, make sure you take some time for yourself each and every day. On the good and the bad days. The days you are happy and the days you are sad. The days when you are winning and the days when not so much. Sometimes the love you need is from yourself!
Have you ever wanted to start something but you were waiting on the perfect time? I’ve been there too. I found myself writing down my goals but waiting for the perfect scenario to get it off the ground. Guess what, they were just goals on a piece of paper. I wasn’t doing the work. I had all the excuses.
I would journal about everything I wanted in life, but I was always waiting on this magical moment to take action. For instance, I told myself I would start posting content again when I had a trendy apartment, a photographer, and more time.
Well guess what, I don’t have any of those things at the moment. I had to shift my focus.
I make it work with a simple backdrop from Amazon, an iPhone 11, and the time I was wasting watching others live their best lives.
I had to get creative and start with the things I already had. I also had to stop comparing myself to others on Instagram and just do me!
If you also struggle with perfectionism, I have some advice. Just keep it simple. Do the best you can with what you have! You got this!
